Story Of My Life (PART 1) - HEARTBROKEN

Bismillahi Rahman Nirrahim.


Kazman, is friend of mine. Or should i say "LIFESAVER". Two years with him, more than enough for me to trust him. Why? Aku pun inda tahu. My instinct said so. The day i broke up with my EX, he's the one who beside to cheer me up & gave his shoulder for me to cry. Kadang-kadang ia selalu bawa makan, main air pantai, round BSB to Belait, pasal inda mau lihat aku menangis. He's single by the way =D that's the best part. His character? Hitam manis, tinggi, not too thin & absolutely inda lampuh. Sedap mata memandang. Baik? Maybe you can judge him after finish read my whole story.

Different with Aswan, my EXboyfriend, which is chinese-look, had a fair skin, medium size & ofcourse handsome. We're already together about 3years coming 4. It's not easy to be with him, macam-macam dugaan ditempuh semata-mata untuk menyelamatkan our relationship. And, menunggu ia habis rekrut jua satu cabaran dan dugaan. Walaupun sakit menanggung rindu, tapi akan jua kan daya atu tah masa depannya. Once in two weeks, he will be back from his training centre and he always brought me to somewhere and we’re dated. Old memories always making me cry over and over. But EX always be EX. Perhaps. Inside, im still waiting for him to come and give me a new chance of life and build new relationship with new phase of life. *Sighsssssss. People always saying that 'handsome boy is BELONG TO ANYONE, not only u'. It's true and always be. Why & how we broke up? He's got someone else, maybe someone better than me. The last words he said after a year our relationship goes up & down, 'mungkin tani terpaksa putus dulu, relax kan segala kekusutan di kepala. Enjoy our life. Wait for me to save my money than we will get marry'. WTH??!!!

Im not educated lady, but im not stupid tho. Why should we broke up just because of he want to save money for our marriage? Isnt it just an excuse? Why dont we just carry on our relationship & saving our money until it's enought for us to marry? WHY? His hug is the last hug we had & i'm kept silent after heard what he's said. Suprisingly im not crying neither begging him. Next? had to carry on my life, without him. Walaupun bukan first time kedapatan yang ia ada bini-bini lain dalam sepanjang hubungan kami tapi aku masih sabar dan inda pernah keluarkan perkataan putus.

After few months, I did contacted him & met him. WHY? Mau balikkan semua barang-barangnya yang pernah ia bagi arahku. And aku minta balik barang yang ia pinjam, kecuali barang yang ku bagi arahnya saja aku inda minta balik. Pasal barang atu ikhlas dari hati. The cruel part, i want my NOKIA(s) back!!! It's not yours, boy!! *Evil laugh*. But when i reached home, i cried. Im still loving you so much.

To be continue..............